he call me juz now.. around 10.23am.. while i was sleepin... i was shocked tat he called me through my hs phone.. i wondered how he noe my hs num.. i figured it out at laz.. he get it from my fren.. den.. he ask me whether i can go out 2day.. he say he hav sumthin to tell me.. he didnt say is wad.. i think it is not important so i say no.. i cant go out.. but actually i did really cant go out.. i thought i would say tmr.. cause i hav tuition and i will reach around 12.00pm.. my tuition starts at 12.30pm.. so.. i thought tat he can tell me.. but i double think it.. i didnt say it out at laz.. cause i really doesnt wana c him.. even talk to him.. even sms wit him... he think i m wad?? i a doll tat once he lk means i muz lk.. once he ask me to go out i go out.. once he say he dun lk means i muz dun lk him.. i m not a doll of him.. i m a human tat full of feeling.. i m very sad n angry when he treated me lk tat... but its ok.. tats call d world has a lot more other den him.. i reali reali tried to 4get him.. once i 4get him.. he call me.. how should i 4get bout him?? i reali hate myself.. i feel lk wana suicide sumtimes.. but i didnt cause i noe theres sum1 out there tat cares bout me.. i should try my best to 4get bout him n live wit hapi go lucki...